carnivore reduced my toxic load

You know when you believe in something so much, and then you have to rethink everything? That is how it is with carnivore for me right now. What happened? 

On carnivore, my first four months were magical. I felt superhuman. And I still believe this is how we are supposed to feel, regardless of our age. I was 50 and felt ALIVE for the first time in 30 years. Like I could take on anything. Do anything. The light I had inside of me when I was ten years old was BACK!! 

Then all hell broke loose as this roller coaster called life does. Bill, my husband died. I finally got healthy, and he fucking died. Yes, I am angry. 

We thought he was the healthy one. He was extremely active, at a good weight, and seemed to handle stress well. He did not let things bother him. But, he did have high blood pressure and his glucose was off near the end. He had an aortic dissection, which was being monitored. But, apparently not enough. 

Two weeks after he died, his brother asked to re-do both my bathrooms. I put my trust in him as I thought he knew what I was going through. You see, he had just lost his Dad a few months ago. Then his brother. It’s a lot, but not the same. 

How could he know what I was going through? He’s never been married or had kids. So, when people tell you to wait a year before making big decisions, listen. Hell, I am still in a fog. 

When he did the bathrooms, I was not able to grieve properly. There was nowhere to escape to, as he was always there. Plus, he was pushing me to get a job. We all grieve differently. Staying busy is good for some, but not others. 

Also, this is when the mold spores were released in my home. The walls and floors were exposed, and nothing was covered to stop the spores from traveling. He was in over his head. He was in a fog. I should have never said yes. 

So, between the grief of losing my husband and being exposed to mold, my immune system has been in overdrive. With CIRS, it basically does not turn off. Nutrition cannot fix this alone. 

However, carnivore did reduce my toxic load. Taking out sugar, processed foods, and plants has helped me greatly. Not to mention fiber. I used to be in constant pain. I’m not anymore. 

If I added sugar, processed foods, and plants back in, my inflammation would spike more. Then, I would be in bed as I was for 10-12 years, before this diet. I am hopeful that brain re-training can help, and I will be able to eat more later. Who knows. 

Carnivore also has given me freedom. I know that seems weird. But I am not constantly thinking about food. Cravings are gone. I can walk into a candy store and not desire anything. Take me to a steak house, and my mouth will start watering, lol. 

So, what else can help at this point? Limbic retraining? Somatic therapy? Red Light Therapy? Talk-Therapy? Intermittent Fasting? A rebounder? Lymphatic drainage? Infrared Sauna? Castor Oil Packs? Exercise? Better Sleep? EMF Protectors? Community? Binders? Supplements? Yoga? Meditation? All the above?

I believe so. But one at a time, slowly. I was a carnivore for months, then added in talk therapy, and next was exercise, yoga, some lymphatic drainage, and finally, infrared therapy. 

I am using a habit tracker and taking notes to know what works. I have just added castor oil packs, and I am going to try it for thirty days. Fingers crossed that it helps. 

I would also like to add red light therapy to help my immune system and mood. I live in Virginia, and the winter months are a bit much. I crave the sun. 

So, I think it takes a multitude of tools to heal from grief and biotoxins. I also believe sugar and processed foods are causing many diseases. Maybe if my late husband had been eating better, his inflammation would have been lower, and he would have lived longer. 

Are you on a healing journey? What things are you doing that you have found to be helpful?